That's right, I love boys, but not just any boys, my 2 boys! Josh and Ty...they are the coolest, most amazing, & most attractive boys I've ever seen. :)
There's something a mom cannot explain to have a son as her 1st born. This little life, with all his physical characteristics that look just like my husband! I love my husband more than anyone in the world, and think he is more handsome than anyone and so loving and patient. So naturally my heart overflows with happiness when I see my son with all the exact same physical characteristics as my husband. I love looking at Ty and being able to see Josh. Ty has no idea how lucky he is, or how much more lucky he will be if he has the same personality as his daddy!
You tell me....does he look like his daddy or what?
Not that I wouldn't have been happy with a girl first, but I love that we had a boy! I grew up with 2 older brothers and loved it. There's just something right about having a boy as the oldest child in a family. There to protect, and experience life 1st, to help the younger sisters out. I couldn't have asked for 2 better brothers. I was such a loved little girl and now as adults, I'm blessed beyond measure to still have 2 awesome brothers, and now 2 amazing sisters, to bring so much joy to our lives! Josh and I are so thankful for the relationship we can have with them, even though we are many many miles apart!
Brett and Blake playing with me! I think I had some pretty fun rides, what do you think?
Ah, cuddle time with my brothers!
I love that we get to have baseballs, basketballs, soccer balls, legos, trucks & tractors filling our house. I love that we get to throw him around and "toughen him up". The dynamics of families with boys as the oldest, are just fun! I can't wait to have a fun HOME! I love that boys eat a lot of food....I will get to cook as much as I want and Ty will eat it all because he'll be young and have a fast metabolism. :) His haircuts will be cheap, especially if I can do them like I do Josh's! I can't wait to see what his interests and abilities are. Will he be a soccer player like his daddy? A basketball player like his uncles? A John Deere lover like his daddy?
I can't wait to teach him about Jesus. I can't wait to teach him how to be a kind and loving gentleman. I know my role as the women in his life is very short lived, but it's so very crucial. Because without me there to teach him about Jesus, he would not live a life as a man after God's heart. And he would not be prepared to be the man of his future wife's dreams. As a mom to this boy, I have a lot of responsibility, and probably won't get a lot of credit or attention for it, but someday when I see him loving Jesus and loving his wife and family, it will be worth it, and I will see the fruit of my efforts.
The hardest part about having a boy is knowing you will only be the women in his life for a short time. A friend on facebook talked about how her son asked her if she would marry him someday. Ah, the dream of every mom's heart. :) To be the only women in your son's life forever. But that's not the way God intended it to work. And so even now, at 8 weeks old, we begin the process of letting go. And I think I've decided the easiest way to begin that process is to begin thinking about what I'm preparing him for. His wife will be so thankful for the Godly man he is and thankful that I poured my life into him to prepare him for her and her alone. Oh how I love that woman already and I don't know her. I love her for how she's going to love my little Ty (who I know will someday no longer be "my Ty" but "her Ty", but I need to remember that really he's "God's Ty"). As I think about passing the baton on to that beautiful girl, my eyes fill with tears (perhaps because he's only 8 weeks old, but I don't think so, I'm not sure I'll feel any different in 20 more years:) ). You literally raise them so they will leave you. If they don't leave you, you haven't done your job. Being a mom is amazing, I hope that in 25 more years, I still feel that way, and won't be just saddened by the loss of the kids I've poured these next 25 years into. I don't think I will though. I think that Josh will be a huge part in helping me keep the right perspective. Josh will always be the man in my life, from now until the day we die, and that's why it will be so crucial to keep our relationship strong and make it a priority because someday soon, all we will have is each other. I don't say these things to sound negative or depressing, just to keep life in perspective and preparing myself as a mommy to let go, even now. I have a feeling the next 25 years will be one "letting go process" after another. :) And in the mean time, I am going to cherish these precious precious moments with Ty and cuddle as much as I can, kiss him, play with him, and laugh with him as much as I can, while I still can, while I am still the woman in his life!